Wasted Time!

When you grow up with a group of people you become tied to them in some way. Whether you ever got along with each other or not doesn't matter when it comes closer to time to part. These faces that you've known your whole life are all about to be memories and whether or not you'll meet again is uncertain. i've made a lot of friends in my time and i'll miss everyone of them. Some of them i've just barely made in this final year of high school. When you start to realize that you may never see these people again, you start to see all the good in them. Not that it was hiding before but we choose to see what we want to see. Unfortunately for some of us it takes being brought to the end of the road to open our eyes. There are friends here that i'll miss everyday that i'm away. With so little time left i try to share all the good times and smiles that i can with them. i've wasted a lot of time disliking people merely because i never took the time to see the good in them. i'll not waste anymore Along the Way...

Realization

It seems that at this very moment i'm hurting in every way. Mentally, physically, and in the deepest part of my soul. i have done everything i could think of that i hoped would have positive effect. You can't always be a hero though, i know that now. Some things do better when they heal on their own. My foolishness led me to believe that when someone is in need, you should help because there is always something you can do. But that isn't always so. In reality sometimes all you can do is watch, hope, and let the chips fall where they may. A wise friend told me the other day, giving up isn't quitting but instead being able to let go. i think i'll remember that Along the Way...

Good Sides and Bad Sides

With every decision there are good sides and bad sides. Very seldom will you ever be in a situation where everything can be fixed. There is never any assurance that the decisions you make to solve whatever problems will lead you to a brighter path. The vision of how things will turn out is clouded and blurred into the sweetest of dreams and the worst of nightmares. Hesitation and doubt overflow your mind with every course of action you could take. Sometimes it is hard to tell if the good a solution can bring out ways the bad. And then again sometimes maybe a little bad is needed to reach that brighter path. And other times we just need to know when it's time to step back and let the pieces fall where they may because there isn't always something you can do other than let things play out for themselves. All we have is hope that things will be okay Along the Way...

A Thought

What is a thought? An opinion, or maybe a feeling? Perhaps even an accusation against a subject. It just might be your accusation of a point in reality. A point such as slavery, grandma's cookies or are you a republican or a democrat. Slavery is a bad thing, grandma's cookies are delicious, democrats are right and republicans ruined the ozone are all accusations that are judged upon everyday. Accusations are nothing more than opinions and feelings towards a situation. Whether those opinions and feelings are right or wrong is to be judged only by others' accusations. There is a right and there is a wrong but defining them is not up man kind for we are corrupt. We merely have to see hurt and see happiness to know the difference which are nothing more than reactions to the accusations and actions we take. That's all we have to go off of do to our corruption. And it is a hard line to read for our naive and narrow vision. The questions that remain at the end of the day are, if you are morally correct will you still stand strong in your shoes to fight for what you believe in and not sink to the beliefs of the sea of people around you, or if you truly are wrong can you admit it and seek change? Along the Way... yeah you might find those rights and wrongs, but the truth is we'll never really know what's right and what's wrong! Unless through our blurred eyes we finally one day see what causes tears and what causes a smile. And sometimes even that can lie!

Grownups

Looking back now i see that all the lectures that i thought were just a load of crap and not worth listening to, are helping me from time to time. i think that while you're growing up and think you can take on the world you don't know when it's time to listen. i had a teacher back in 7th and 8th grade that always handled things the right way. She was hard on me when she needed to be and knew how to get the best out of me. It seemed at the time to me as nothing more than another nagging teacher but now i realize that it was just what i needed. And today while i'm looking back i notice that she was a big factor in molding me into who i am now. From that i have learned to listen. It is a virtue that will make the biggest of differences in the long run. So next time you have someone all up in your face and trying to give you direction, just know there giving you a little guidance because they do care about where you end up Along the Way...

Patches

Everybody has times when things couldn't seem worse. Couples, parents and their children, friends and just general relationships with people are all vulnerable and unfortunately are also easy to break. You may get into a lot of fights yeah, nothing is perfect and that's understandable. But when the down times are continuous and repeating themselves it's hard to keep up the fight of patching the holes, gaps and cracks. Sometimes you need to let a broken heart be broken. Sometimes a person just needs to feel what it is they're trying to patch. Let it bleed for a while and let the hurt get to you. Let tears fall and maybe when that's all over and the flood waters clear their sight will be clear and they'll be okay. There comes a point when there is just too many pieces to be patching anymore. You have to find the line between yes i can patch this and no this needs to hurt a little. People may give you advice on your personal situation but this is just one of those things that you won't take advice for. Nobody does. i learned the hard way and now there's so many pieces and so much duct tape wrapped around them that i'm too scared to cry anymore. But i know now that no one is impenetrable to hurt. Everyone needs a release Along the Way...

Pain and Bliss

Pain is everywhere in this world and has different faces. But through all it's masks it still can't hide itself. From something as small as losing your first football game to something as big as burying a loved one. Emotions can run wild during such times causing you to lash out and say things that are just better left unsaid or do things that are better left undone. It's good that you feel emotion so don't run away from it. Just see the bigger picture and realize that there are easier paths to take. You'll find that there's always someone there for you as a shoulder to cry on when the weight of your burdens seem to get to you. So cry, don't think it to be weak. Let go the cap to your shaken up bottle and you'll find the bliss in life once the waters clear. You'll see that amongst all the pain there are shining stars in the dark space we find our selves sitting in sometimes. Just know there is serenity, there is bliss, if you'll let yourself see it Along the Way...

Don't Wait for all your Wants to Come

There are times in life when you'll find that people, no matter how good you treat them, will use you to vent on. If you're a good friend you'll let them do that when they need to because at least they're letting it all out. Then you give them a big hug and tell'em everything is gonna be alright. If they're wise they'll know that those words are true and that things do have there ups and downs and that's just how it is. There are also times in life when you'll meet those people that don't think that those single moments of laughter and smiles aren't worth seeking for if they're just gonna disappear. That those memories aren't worth making because they'll only make you sad when it's your time to pass. So they'll shut out all the emotions like happiness, caring for another, loving another, and everything in between. But if we do have to leave this world soon, i want my legacy to be filled with love. i want my memories to be of the best times in life, the high points, and all those cloud nine moments. i want to make living through all of the worst times worth it. That's something i don't plan on waiting for Along the Way... i'm starting now!

Falling to Pieces

Their are those times in life when the road gets rough and bumpy. From your first heart break to the death of someone close to you. God tends to throw a lot of obstacles at us that always seem to hit us right where it hurts the most. Those obstacles can take from us and give to us. They take what we hold dearest away so we'll have nothing to break our fall. They give to us as much heart ache as you could ever receive. God throws these obstacles in our way to see what we'll do. He wants to know if we'll break down and give up all hope or fight till our last deep breath for the hope we're clinging to. Hope that everything is gonna turn out all right. Maybe if we're tough enough to make it through this sea of pain the water won't taste so bitter. He'll tear and rip out all the things you brace yourself with until it seems that everything is falling to pieces and then just watch. Waiting for you to give up or get up. So when the rest of the world seems like it's crashing down around you, will you fall with it? That is a question nobody every really thinks of at the time when they hurt the most. But now that you've read this you might keep it in mind next time your world is falling to pieces. God doesn't want to see us fail, he just likes to watch us overcome the pain we feel in our chest. So don't fall with the pieces of your broken heart. Pick them up and put it back together and get ready for the next go round. Anybody can find that place in their soul that says don't stop hoping. And if you haven't found it yet, trust me, you'll find it Along the Way...

Love

You may see old couples today that still hold hands, share kisses, and hold each other like letting go may separate them forever. When you see them, depending on the type of person you are, you'll think to yourself "i wish i had that." It is a beautiful and powerful thing if two people stay together their whole lives. Through all the worst times and all the best times, the fights and the heart melting moments, and the unconditional love that is spoken and understood just by the look in their eyes, they'll realize that they are exactly where they want to be. It doesn't matter how bad his or her day was, because when they come home to the loving embrace of one another it's still enough to make them smile. And it doesn't matter how unbelievably amazing his or her day was, because it isn't ever going to be breathtaking until they're sharing that moment together. i refuse to express my feelings on this just because i don't know who is reading this. Hopefully though, when you see this you'll find it to be something you want. An everlasting love and the all knowingness that that special someone will always be there with you. Maybe it's something we'll all find Along the Way...

Growing up in a Small Town

When you live in a small town you'll notice that there isn't a whole lot of opportunity. Some kids will just take it cause they have to or settle for it would be a better choice of words. They'll tell their parents how bored they are and complain every second of the day. Then there are those kids who won't settle for anything less than what their chasing. Dreams that shape their personalities into "can do" attitudes and two hands filled with wants that they're reaching out for. And it doesn't matter which type of kid you are, because either way if you end up leaving you'll be missing that place you called home and wishing you could relive every heart throbbing moment that made you the person you are. People say you should live life without regrets, but when it all comes down to the last day at school, the day of your retirement, or the day you draw your last breath in this world, everybody looks back and wants a second chance for some reason or another. So i try to do right with this one shot i got and i've made a lot of mistakes on my path. i'm taking those mistakes and i'm trying not to make them twice. That's all we can do. It is the human condition and nobody is perfect. i know i'm already wishing for that second chance and i'm only 17 years old. Just one of my opinions i've gained. Maybe it'll change Along the Way...